We all feel that pressure to find the balance between all of our roles...how are you doing at it?
It has been a while since I posted anything on here, and I hate to admit it but I’m finding it all too much. I know that it is common knowledge that we need to find balance in our lives, that you can’t pour from an empty cup, that your family and kids are the most important thing. The laundry, the cooking, the cleaning, does not need to be perfect, does not need to be Grade A, top notch. Unfortunately, that is so much easier said than done. So I had to drop something these last couple of weeks. And unfortunately that was you guys – my blog had to be put on the back burner.
I strive to have two posts a week, to be promoting it on all social media sites, creating graphics, reading other blogs, commenting, getting followers and following so many interesting, and awesome people from all over the world.
I hate that the blog writing, and promoting had to be put on pause for a while, since it is my favourite thing to do (other than being a mum). Instead of doing this I have been struggling to balance the mum, wife, teacher, cook, maid, and human side of me. Finding the balance I know is not something that only I have been struggling with. My text conversations, staff room at lunch, and conversations with fellow teacher moms have all revolved around how we feel stretched so thin, and that we are not being the best version of ourselves for anyone.
Our relationships with our husbands are not as good as they could be, I’m cranky with my kids when I shouldn’t be and far too often, my students are not getting the fun and engaging lessons I strive to give, and I have no time for myself. I have been on the same page of my book for months, my blog has not been touched, my DIY aspirations haven’t begun, I haven’t picked up a paintbrush since I last posted about it (in January I think).
When I first started this blog, I envisioned writing so many more posts on recipes and DIY ideas and unfortunately I have been only able to post these “mum struggle” types of posts. The “oh poor me” type of posts. And for that I am truly sorry. As you know I have started this blog for a creative outlet, for a place to me to write down my thoughts, and any tips I have learned along the way as a mum who has made a ton of mistakes.
So the break that I took was a mix of good and bad, I felt a little less pressed for time, but at the same time I felt like I was failing at yet another thing. I was failing at getting traffic to my blog, I was failing at keeping my numbers up, I was failing at keeping up with my goal. So it was one more thing that I wasn’t succeeding at.
So here I am, back at it, struggling at work, struggling at home, and struggling with my third job. But I’m not one to give up, I’m not one to quit. I will power through, I will figure out a better system, the nice weather and more sunlight will make me feel better. I know that these are minuscule problems that are nothing in comparison to other peoples problems close to home, and all over the world.
Oh poor me right? Too stressed at work (at least I have a good, steady job), too much house work (I have a beautiful house that keeps us protected and warm), too little time to work on my hobbies (well at least I have the opportunity to have these hobbies), being too grumpy with my kids (at least I have two beautiful, healthy children).
I am fully aware that my situation is nowhere near as bad, not even on the same realm of bad, but to me, right now, it’s bad, and I’m struggling.
So I suppose there isn’t really a real reason why I wrote this post. I guess I just wanted you to know, that I haven’t forgotten about you, that I haven’t given up (even though I really want to some days), and that I am working on so many aspects of who I am.
I promise that in the coming weeks and months, you will see more of my recipes, DIY ideas, and more fun, upbeat, creative, the reason-why-I-started-this-blog-in-the-first-place kind of posts.
Thank you for your kind ear, your most wonderful kind words that you message me, and thank you for your support on this journey.