Life throws you curve balls, and it's how you deal with them that makes or breaks you. My husband and I decided not to let life get us down, and to use it as an opportunity to go after what we truly want, what we have always wanted but have been too scared to go for it.
A New Year resolution…in September?
Following dreams seems to be something that we all think about as a new year starts (see here for my thoughts on how ridiculous resolutions). But this dream didn’t start for me in January. A new year, a new me didn’t start in January. My new year, my ‘new me’ started months ago when I was forced to make some tough decisions. I could either let the world get me down, wallow in my self pity, be miserable for what the universe threw my way. Or, I could make some changes, I could finally become the mother, wife, friend and teacher I have always wanted to be.
You see I have had an interesting few months. My family and I have made some huge changes to finally have the life we have always wanted to have. For those of you reading this who are not from Ontario, there is a place, a magical place called “Muskoka”. It is filled with beautiful blue lakes, lush green forests, resting on earth made of granite rock. Beautiful cliffs, the most beautiful sunsets and sunrises, friendly atmosphere and rustic charm. My family had a cottage on one of the many lakes in the area and I completely fell in love with everything about Muskoka. I love canoeing, camping and hiking, and being in nature. I love the fresh air, the lakes, and the trees. When my now husband and I got engaged, I told him of my dream to get married on a dock, in Muskoka. Now we didn’t get married on a dock, but we did get married in the woods, and had our celebration right on the water. I couldn’t have asked for anything more. He also loves the outdoors, and everything that Muskoka represents, and we decided that we would make the move to Muskoka to live and raise our family. Sadly though that dream did not come true. For 10 years we were continuously hoping for, looking at real-estate and wondering how we could make this possible. With two small children, steady jobs (that were no where near where we wanted to be) this dream of ours seemed impossible.
Taking the Leap
Then all of a sudden, we were forced into a situation neither one of us wanted. Neither one of us had anticipated what had happened. This situation (which maybe I will be able to go into more details later) forced us to see what is really important. We decided to take the plunge, to make the choice, and to finally follow our dreams. We started looking at real estate. We had some ups and downs in our search, but what seemed to be fate, we finally found our dream home. It was a rollercoaster of a couple of days, but we did it. We bought it. We moved to our dream area, in a fabulous neighbourhood, with great schools.
Though with following our dreams, our work situation was up in the air. I had to start all over again volunteering in schools, to maybe hopefully get on the supply list, and then get on an LTO list, and then hopefully, one day, be an Art Teacher. Is the uncertainty of not having a steady income worth it? Is moving away from the town and friends you grew up with worth it? Is starting fresh in a new town (although awesome) worth it? Is moving into a house that needs a ton of work worth it? Is moving our son to a new school worth it? To give a short answer…. YES! It scared the sh!t out of us. We were nervous and scared and worried and, to be honest, terrified. But for us, we knew that it was the right thing to do.
Was it Worth It?
Yes financially we will be tight for a while until I find full time work, and yes my husband has a long commute until we can find something local for him, and yes I miss my home, my friends, and everything that felt secure and safe. But we knew we needed to make a change. We were scared, we still are. But we were tired of waiting, we were tired of not doing what we want. Now we are on the right track, going after what we want. I have come to realize all too well that life is too short, and you never know when things are going to get scary, awful or come to an end. Why live life not in the way you want, only because it is safe?
Is it right for everyone?… No. What is right for us?… absolutely. But we are still scared as sh!t not knowing what is around the corner. But we are going on this journey together with the unwavering support of our family and friends. We will see what is around the corner.